Heya!
It's 4:41am central time and I'm at work jammin to Chiodos, drawing random pictures and writing what you are reading now. I am feeling rather bored and sleep deprived at the moment, so that isn't helping my case. I wish I was better at drawing. I love to draw just random whatevers. If I think it, I put it on paper! It's rather hot in here, but then again I have a tendency to say 60 degrees is hot at times. I moved into a new apartment on Monday, which is both good and bad. I need my own place again, but I can not stand Victoria. Time to check my phone. Brb. Any who, I've been playing this Desktop Defender game a lot (while I was in Angleton), me and Robert were having a score war heh. Hot tamales and Monster Assault = tummy ache! I got this book "The God Delusion" and have to say it has given me a good few laughs. What will I title this? Hmm. I'm writing it, then will type it at a late date probably. Life could be worse, at least I have a job and friends, but I'm still lonely. I want someone to want me. Been single nearly a year now! I need water... Brb... Mmm... I used to be engaged, I guess after that being single has just been kinda different? But I've enjoyed not having someone to nag at me all day! But that's part of the package huh? Oh well! I think I'm just to picky. I know I said I had an idea of something to write and still do, but haven't started it heh. I'm 21 and this feels no different! Bah! I have plans when I move into my apartment though! Lots of them! So get ready world, I'm coming for you! Bleh, this chair is so uncomfortable! Anyways I'm done writing for now, I will add more when I type this up!
Addition!
So ya, I back dated this to the date I actually wrote that. It is actually April 11th today. I have moved into my apartment since, and expect to get all my new furniture as of April 13th. Can't wait. My couch is so comfy haha. Any ways, the move in went fine, other than having a few problems with the apartment and the management, which got worked out in the end. So far it has been uneventful. I had my uncle come over once and we had a couple drinks, but otherwise it has been dull living in Victoria as expected. Hopefully it will pick up soon. Want to have a party of the sorts once I get my furniture all moved in. Might even try to actively look for a girlfriend rather than waiting for one to fall from the sky. Just gotta keep positive! So, it is 1am and I am at work haha... Seems to be the best time to write/type up this kind of stuff. I have another blog to type up here in a couple minutes that I wrote a couple days ago, so I'll wrap this up! Thanks for reading.
Sincerely,
Tim
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
In My Humble Opinion...
First of all, I've never written a blog before, so it has always been something I was interested in. Mostly because I love to vent and for everyone to be a part of it! So what better way to go about that without having someone argue with me while I do it!
So I had an amazing four days off this past week. I went to Austin with my best friend and we had a blast, though I really don't think she was as grateful to me for taking four days off as she could have been, but then again she doesn't know what I gave up for those four days off. But still. She was thanking her cousin left and right all weekend like it was him who took days off and took her to Austin for the first time. No doubt though, I am EXTREMELY grateful to him for it, don't get me wrong on that. When our place to stay feel through he let us stay in his apartment for a couple days and was gracious enough to spend his day off showing us around Austin and San Marcos (and I will say he did a MUCH better job than I would have done showing her around). He is a good man, and someone I wouldn't mind being friends with, he was an all around cool dude and easy to get along with. Want to say sorry to my cousin that I didn't get to hang out with while I was down also, I didn't have your number til it was to late! Maybe I'll be down something this summer, we will see. As long as the weather doesn't decide to go from 75 degree to 40 over night... Overall, a good weekend, I enjoyed in it and would do it again anytime, and most importantly, my friend saw Austin for the first time! Always a great experience.
I know I didn't manage to say it, which was rude on my part. But I wanted to say thanks to her parents for letting me stay at their house for a couple days there after we came back to Angleton from Austin. They didn't have to let me stay there, they knew I had alternate housing for the time I was down.
On to what I really felt the need to vent about for whatever reason their may be (maybe it will just make me feel that much better, it usually does). I don't think you are stupid at all, and you know that. Though you are good at acting it when you need to. Anyways, I love our friendship, you are my best friend and I wouldn't ruin that for anything, but you have always known that I liked you more than just a friend. Yesterday wasn't the first time I have told you that, and I know it is always awkward when I do. Spending so much time with you is hard for me, you have to know that. To be with the one that I honestly feel is right for me and not be able to grab it. I liked you back when you were fat (lol sorry... but even if you were still fat or gained weight I wouldn't care), back when you were emo/scene/???/etc etc... Regardless of all your silly phases and everything else you could fathom up. This past year you have really blossomed and become so much more beautiful. Every time I see you, you look more mature, more like the woman you will one day be, and I can't help but gasp at the changes. At how gorgeous you are becoming before my eyes. I told you every time you dated someone that I didn't like them, that they were jerks/douchebags, and I was always right (don't try to deny it). I was always there when you had a frown on your face, when you were damn near shedding tears, when you needed a hug, when you needed a shoulder, when you just wanted to talk. I was there for you to make you laugh, to make you smile, to make your tears dry up before they could form. As much as I wished that one day you would maybe turn to me as more than a friend, as much as it hurt me to see you hurt, I was there for you every step of the way to help you. I would do anything for you, I know you know that, you can't say you don't, otherwise you are lying to everyone. I've always cared for you, and I always will, whether you want it or not. I will always make it awkward again one day, because I do like you. I will never be that person to let you down though, to be a jerk to you, to make you cry. We have so much in common, that I may as well be the male version of you! You have even said so yourself. You are nothing like any other girl I have dated. You are different, you are out of the normal for me. For what ever reason that alone excites me to hang out with you. You are taller than them, more independent, more intelligent, more out going, more everything! You don't beg me to buy you things and spoil you like they did, you don't grow your hair out long and spend days fixing it, or wear dresses and cute little clothes like they did. You aren't a stereotypical princess like I'm so used to indulging. And I can live with that.
Anyways, I am sure I left something out of there. Maybe if I think or it later I'll edit it. Maybe I won't. Only time will tell right? So I have an idea for something I want to write, so keep an eye out for it if you are interested. Might be a few days before I manage to pop it out! Or maybe a couple weeks!
Sincerely,
Tim
So I had an amazing four days off this past week. I went to Austin with my best friend and we had a blast, though I really don't think she was as grateful to me for taking four days off as she could have been, but then again she doesn't know what I gave up for those four days off. But still. She was thanking her cousin left and right all weekend like it was him who took days off and took her to Austin for the first time. No doubt though, I am EXTREMELY grateful to him for it, don't get me wrong on that. When our place to stay feel through he let us stay in his apartment for a couple days and was gracious enough to spend his day off showing us around Austin and San Marcos (and I will say he did a MUCH better job than I would have done showing her around). He is a good man, and someone I wouldn't mind being friends with, he was an all around cool dude and easy to get along with. Want to say sorry to my cousin that I didn't get to hang out with while I was down also, I didn't have your number til it was to late! Maybe I'll be down something this summer, we will see. As long as the weather doesn't decide to go from 75 degree to 40 over night... Overall, a good weekend, I enjoyed in it and would do it again anytime, and most importantly, my friend saw Austin for the first time! Always a great experience.
I know I didn't manage to say it, which was rude on my part. But I wanted to say thanks to her parents for letting me stay at their house for a couple days there after we came back to Angleton from Austin. They didn't have to let me stay there, they knew I had alternate housing for the time I was down.
On to what I really felt the need to vent about for whatever reason their may be (maybe it will just make me feel that much better, it usually does). I don't think you are stupid at all, and you know that. Though you are good at acting it when you need to. Anyways, I love our friendship, you are my best friend and I wouldn't ruin that for anything, but you have always known that I liked you more than just a friend. Yesterday wasn't the first time I have told you that, and I know it is always awkward when I do. Spending so much time with you is hard for me, you have to know that. To be with the one that I honestly feel is right for me and not be able to grab it. I liked you back when you were fat (lol sorry... but even if you were still fat or gained weight I wouldn't care), back when you were emo/scene/???/etc etc... Regardless of all your silly phases and everything else you could fathom up. This past year you have really blossomed and become so much more beautiful. Every time I see you, you look more mature, more like the woman you will one day be, and I can't help but gasp at the changes. At how gorgeous you are becoming before my eyes. I told you every time you dated someone that I didn't like them, that they were jerks/douchebags, and I was always right (don't try to deny it). I was always there when you had a frown on your face, when you were damn near shedding tears, when you needed a hug, when you needed a shoulder, when you just wanted to talk. I was there for you to make you laugh, to make you smile, to make your tears dry up before they could form. As much as I wished that one day you would maybe turn to me as more than a friend, as much as it hurt me to see you hurt, I was there for you every step of the way to help you. I would do anything for you, I know you know that, you can't say you don't, otherwise you are lying to everyone. I've always cared for you, and I always will, whether you want it or not. I will always make it awkward again one day, because I do like you. I will never be that person to let you down though, to be a jerk to you, to make you cry. We have so much in common, that I may as well be the male version of you! You have even said so yourself. You are nothing like any other girl I have dated. You are different, you are out of the normal for me. For what ever reason that alone excites me to hang out with you. You are taller than them, more independent, more intelligent, more out going, more everything! You don't beg me to buy you things and spoil you like they did, you don't grow your hair out long and spend days fixing it, or wear dresses and cute little clothes like they did. You aren't a stereotypical princess like I'm so used to indulging. And I can live with that.
Anyways, I am sure I left something out of there. Maybe if I think or it later I'll edit it. Maybe I won't. Only time will tell right? So I have an idea for something I want to write, so keep an eye out for it if you are interested. Might be a few days before I manage to pop it out! Or maybe a couple weeks!
Sincerely,
Tim
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