Hot & Spicy Chicken Ramen Cup!

Hey Everyone!

As I reach for a cracker a smile forms on my lips. I curl the noodles on my fork as I begin to salivate. I can't wait to put the noodles on that cracker and shove it in my mouth! I happily accept the offer of cracker and noodles from my hand and begin to chew. Enjoying the spicy chicken flavor that just hit my taste buds. I continue this process for the next 5-minutes or so then drink the remaining juice. Ahh! Meal of champions! I know it isn't the best for me and I can afford better, but hey, I love it and it's cheap so why bother? Anyways, as I was devouring my mid-shift meal I suddenly had a memory of easier times pop into my head. One of my best friend and myself. The one I know I can always trust and rely on, maybe my only best friend that I trust that much. It was a hard time for me financially and his mom took me in and let me stay with them til I got got on my feet. Altogether easy going times though. We Would stay up all night gaming, eating taco bell ten times a day, hang with friends, go paintball and was probably the only time I regularly went to church on Sundays. We would go to the kitchen and get a few packs of ramen and throw them into a pot and let them simmer for 10 to 15-minutes while adding way to much seasoning, the water was a different color every time. Then we would grab a box of saltines and head up to his room and open the laptops , chill on his bed and game away (usually WoW) while devouring our gloruous feast. Good times. I don't hang out with this friend nearly enough anymore and it sucks, but life happens. But regardless we always got each others backs through it all. I'd just like to say thank you to Mrs. Hundl for all her generosity to me over the years and thanks for always being there for me Trey. You are a true friend and you know I got your back anytime bro.

Sincerely,
Tim

Why Should I?

You think I care for you? Well maybe I do, I don't want to be a liar. Though, if you must know. I absolutely don't trust you and I don't know if I can ever trust you again. I gave you my heart, mind, body and time and you threw it to the ground and turned your back on me. Were your tears a lie? A trick to leave my heart on a tight rope balancing on hope so you could knock it down? Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about. I know. How couldn't I? No I won't say we can't be friends. Then again I won't say we can either. Decide for yourself whichever you think I believe. Though, can you tell me why even looking your way or uttering a hello is worth my time? I didn't think so. Think about it then get back to me. Your apologies are to late at this point and you can't even tell me what you're apologizing for. Are you really willing to make amends? Then prove it. No I won't tell you what to you have to do. You have to figure that out yourself. Well goodbye for now. No I can't talk longer. Bye.

Nujabes

Hey everyone!

Been a week or so since I made a blog. Figured it was about time for another, and I happened to hear a song a couple minutes ago by one of my favorite artists. It really sucks when someone so amazing has their life taken from them tragically. Jun Seba on Feb 26th died in a car accident. He was only 36. That is way to young, and he had so much going for him. He had his own record label that he founded, and was known for helping underground artists getting noticed. I loved listening to his music, it was very soulful and it felt like he really loved what he was making. It was inspirational to me at times, and always brought back memories listening to it.

Anyways, onto the positive I guess! I've been fairly good lately. Had a four day weekend recently that felt like it lasted forever, so I really don't want to be at work right now. Granted I nearly never do. I've got back into playing Killzone 2 haha. I didn't want to get off and come to work. It was an eventful four days kinda. I went out to a couple bars with some people and had a good time. Even asked a girl if she wanted to go out but got rejected, oh well! Life goes on anyways ya know? I didn't expect much anyways, just was hoping for someone to hang out with I guess haha. My bad. I would say something more meaningful or important, but there really just isn't anything going on in my life right now. I work, eat and sleep. When I have days off I try to find a second job or see if anyone wants to do random junk, but Victoria doesn't really have much to offer me there. Though! I might be joining a band here pretty soon. I've been looking for one since I moved out here. Will get to play drums again if I join, it has been a long time heh. If anyone was aware I was trying to get into the Airforce awhile back, from about July or August last year til February this year, I might be heading back to the MEPS one more time to try my hearing test again. Which was the reason why I was rejected in the first place after wasting all that time. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I really want to get into the Airforce, and I think if they give me another chance to take the test I can do it. We will see! Anyways, I miss all of you people in Angleton. I'll have to come visit here pretty soon If I can. So I'll talk to you all later then!

Sincerely,

Tim

*Yawn

Yo!

So I just felt like writing something tonight. It's another boring night at work, but I guess that is better than it being to eventful huh? t is unusually quiet tonight though, which I'm thankful for. Always nice to just relax at work. Anyways, I have been good, as good as I can be out here in Victoria. Life is neither exceptional good nor bad at the moment, just gliding along for now it seems. I got my furniture on Tuesday, it's great. It came with twelve pillows for my couch haha. Now if only people would come over and visit me. Maybe this weekend. Four days off after eight days on, I can't wait. Hoping to go out or something fun. Anyways, I got a number today. High-five! I wouldn't mind a girlfriend at the moment, maybe. We will see! I started working out when I moved into my new apartment. Gotta get in shape so I can look like Rambo! Well maybe not, but still... So that is pretty much it for now. I'm still working on that thing I said I'd write in my first blog, meaning I haven't actually started. Anyways, check ya later!

Sincerely,
Tim

Red Playdoh Heart In My Backpack!

This is to you who was lost to me long ago.

Hey there! It has been quite some time hasn't it? I'm doing good actually, I know you wouldn't believe me, but that is OK. I hope you are doing good yourself. I know you will most certainly never read this, but as I was rummaging through that old backpack of mine throwing away stuff, found something you gave me. It just so happens one of our numerous songs we had played as I found it, coincidence of course. This was another promise I kept I guess? A little red playdoh heart you told me to never lose or break. It is still in one piece and safe. I used to think of you often, but lately it is only by coincidence like that that you ever cross my mind. I wasn't sure the day I'd stop thinking about us would come, but it did. We had a good run to, but it had to end, it was absolutely for the best. I won't go into detail of why, since we both knew why. It wasn't a bad thing we had. So many good memories and experiences that made us both grow and mature. I don't regret us, or our breaking up. My aunts tell e that you still visit them. Is that weird at all to see the family of the man you once dated? I don't know what I'd say to your family if I still saw them regularly haha. Though I do miss visiting your family and playing with you little brother and sister. They were always happy to see me and such characters. I never wanted kids before I dated you though, but maybe one day I will. I have a nephew now. He is my only full brothers son, and he is an amazing kid! I love him like I do my older brother, the only member of my family I regularly get along with. Any ways, stay safe and beautiful I know my friends would argue that). And as always, I wish you only the best.

Sincerely,
Tim

(P.S. I think I'll hold onto that heart still, just so I can say I was the one who never broke our promises.)

Just Checkin In!

Heya!

It's 4:41am central time and I'm at work jammin to Chiodos, drawing random pictures and writing what you are reading now. I am feeling rather bored and sleep deprived at the moment, so that isn't helping my case. I wish I was better at drawing. I love to draw just random whatevers. If I think it, I put it on paper! It's rather hot in here, but then again I have a tendency to say 60 degrees is hot at times. I moved into a new apartment on Monday, which is both good and bad. I need my own place again, but I can not stand Victoria. Time to check my phone. Brb. Any who, I've been playing this Desktop Defender game a lot (while I was in Angleton), me and Robert were having a score war heh. Hot tamales and Monster Assault = tummy ache! I got this book "The God Delusion" and have to say it has given me a good few laughs. What will I title this? Hmm. I'm writing it, then will type it at a late date probably. Life could be worse, at least I have a job and friends, but I'm still lonely. I want someone to want me. Been single nearly a year now! I need water... Brb... Mmm... I used to be engaged, I guess after that being single has just been kinda different? But I've enjoyed not having someone to nag at me all day! But that's part of the package huh? Oh well! I think I'm just to picky. I know I said I had an idea of something to write and still do, but haven't started it heh. I'm 21 and this feels no different! Bah! I have plans when I move into my apartment though! Lots of them! So get ready world, I'm coming for you! Bleh, this chair is so uncomfortable! Anyways I'm done writing for now, I will add more when I type this up!

Addition!

So ya, I back dated this to the date I actually wrote that. It is actually April 11th today. I have moved into my apartment since, and expect to get all my new furniture as of April 13th. Can't wait. My couch is so comfy haha. Any ways, the move in went fine, other than having a few problems with the apartment and the management, which got worked out in the end. So far it has been uneventful. I had my uncle come over once and we had a couple drinks, but otherwise it has been dull living in Victoria as expected. Hopefully it will pick up soon. Want to have a party of the sorts once I get my furniture all moved in. Might even try to actively look for a girlfriend rather than waiting for one to fall from the sky. Just gotta keep positive! So, it is 1am and I am at work haha... Seems to be the best time to write/type up this kind of stuff. I have another blog to type up here in a couple minutes that I wrote a couple days ago, so I'll wrap this up! Thanks for reading.

Sincerely,
Tim

In My Humble Opinion...

First of all, I've never written a blog before, so it has always been something I was interested in. Mostly because I love to vent and for everyone to be a part of it! So what better way to go about that without having someone argue with me while I do it!

So I had an amazing four days off this past week. I went to Austin with my best friend and we had a blast, though I really don't think she was as grateful to me for taking four days off as she could have been, but then again she doesn't know what I gave up for those four days off. But still. She was thanking her cousin left and right all weekend like it was him who took days off and took her to Austin for the first time. No doubt though, I am EXTREMELY grateful to him for it, don't get me wrong on that. When our place to stay feel through he let us stay in his apartment for a couple days and was gracious enough to spend his day off showing us around Austin and San Marcos (and I will say he did a MUCH better job than I would have done showing her around). He is a good man, and someone I wouldn't mind being friends with, he was an all around cool dude and easy to get along with. Want to say sorry to my cousin that I didn't get to hang out with while I was down also, I didn't have your number til it was to late! Maybe I'll be down something this summer, we will see. As long as the weather doesn't decide to go from 75 degree to 40 over night... Overall, a good weekend, I enjoyed in it and would do it again anytime, and most importantly, my friend saw Austin for the first time! Always a great experience.

I know I didn't manage to say it, which was rude on my part. But I wanted to say thanks to her parents for letting me stay at their house for a couple days there after we came back to Angleton from Austin. They didn't have to let me stay there, they knew I had alternate housing for the time I was down.

On to what I really felt the need to vent about for whatever reason their may be (maybe it will just make me feel that much better, it usually does). I don't think you are stupid at all, and you know that. Though you are good at acting it when you need to. Anyways, I love our friendship, you are my best friend and I wouldn't ruin that for anything, but you have always known that I liked you more than just a friend. Yesterday wasn't the first time I have told you that, and I know it is always awkward when I do. Spending so much time with you is hard for me, you have to know that. To be with the one that I honestly feel is right for me and not be able to grab it. I liked you back when you were fat (lol sorry... but even if you were still fat or gained weight I wouldn't care), back when you were emo/scene/???/etc etc... Regardless of all your silly phases and everything else you could fathom up. This past year you have really blossomed and become so much more beautiful. Every time I see you, you look more mature, more like the woman you will one day be, and I can't help but gasp at the changes. At how gorgeous you are becoming before my eyes. I told you every time you dated someone that I didn't like them, that they were jerks/douchebags, and I was always right (don't try to deny it). I was always there when you had a frown on your face, when you were damn near shedding tears, when you needed a hug, when you needed a shoulder, when you just wanted to talk. I was there for you to make you laugh, to make you smile, to make your tears dry up before they could form. As much as I wished that one day you would maybe turn to me as more than a friend, as much as it hurt me to see you hurt, I was there for you every step of the way to help you. I would do anything for you, I know you know that, you can't say you don't, otherwise you are lying to everyone. I've always cared for you, and I always will, whether you want it or not. I will always make it awkward again one day, because I do like you. I will never be that person to let you down though, to be a jerk to you, to make you cry. We have so much in common, that I may as well be the male version of you! You have even said so yourself. You are nothing like any other girl I have dated. You are different, you are out of the normal for me. For what ever reason that alone excites me to hang out with you. You are taller than them, more independent, more intelligent, more out going, more everything! You don't beg me to buy you things and spoil you like they did, you don't grow your hair out long and spend days fixing it, or wear dresses and cute little clothes like they did. You aren't a stereotypical princess like I'm so used to indulging. And I can live with that.

Anyways, I am sure I left something out of there. Maybe if I think or it later I'll edit it. Maybe I won't. Only time will tell right? So I have an idea for something I want to write, so keep an eye out for it if you are interested. Might be a few days before I manage to pop it out! Or maybe a couple weeks!

Sincerely,
Tim